dilema dah berakhir

Kepada en diary,

dilema aku mengenai ofer dari uptk tu aku dah diskus dgn prof selasa aritu. She ask me to think it deeply either working or studying..

honestly my first intention coming here is for my master.

*flash back

when first I came here (early 2007) is to pursue my master degree. So in time i learned many things selain dari culture la.. so after 3 months prohibition, i can pursue master degree. that time i mmg dah ada project for master which is on oil palm..

btw, that time around July.. so the proposed proposal was send to Guthrie and they agreed to collaborate dengan UM.. mean time diorang nak settle lawyer n other management things... dah about end of 2007. I am so worried but try to rileks jek..

then prof ask me to start part of my project on tobacco.. so i pun mula la buat tobacco culture.. masa terus berjalan till feb 2008. (genab 1 tahun aku di lab ini sebagai RA)

tapi... MOU with Guthrie tak sign2 lagi.. I am really2 worried.. is the tobacco going to be my master degree?????? OMG...

neway, i tetap maintain kat lab buat keje yg di assign. other than that, i did went for workshop, training, seminar, booth etc.. same like the other students..
*tapi bila ku nak register ni???

I was thinking to register once my project result dah establish sikit.. so bole la habis master within the 2 years... tapi apakan daya .. almost 1 tahun 1/2 aku kat sini.. oil palm culture pun Guthrie tak bagi2 lagi....

So, UPTK offer me working as "pegawai analisa projek" Walaupun post ni aku pun tak pernah dengar.. tapi aku tau apa scope keje aku n im doing in line.. hopefully senang skit la keje aku nnt. they offer me better salary but im not sure keje ni promising ke tak.

So, after discuss dgn prof, she ask me to think it deeply....

Actually, knp aku nak sgt keje tu... sbb gaji dia bagi much better, then uptk is also under um, and prof M tu kata, aku bole futher master jugak wif him..

so, aku rasa ni better offer kot..

so, tadi second time meet and discuss dgn prof to tell her my decision. Aku tetap nak g jugak.. prof kata aku pilih keje tu sbb dia ofer gaji better and coz next year aku nak kawin.
*act betul apa yg dia rasa. aku setuju.

i will start on this monday.. meaning tomorrow is my last day here. macam sedey pulak. im so determine....

At last discussion.. aku cakap kat prof.

ME: prof, tapi if project Guthrie dah sign and stable.. prof email la saya.. Im so interested with
the project ;D
PRFO : OO.. Ok. I think u r determine to the oil palm la...

*meaning aku ada chance to come back to this lab if i made a 'not so right' decision..

thanx prof

-peace-